I must admit that I thought I was "doing well" in this waiting season between court and embassy until last week. I had one of those good but messy weeks were you can't sleep, wrestle and plead with God and eventually come to the realization that your will and plan is obviously not Gods and you must be at peace with that. This journey is hard but I must say that I am grateful for good and messy days because I am not the same women I was when I started this process. God is refining me and pruning me and I want to be a women that represents more of Jesus and less of Betsy. He is teaching me to walk and trust Him with my every step and every breathe and he is ripping me of any control over my life that I thought I ever had. I am so thankful to be on this journey but it is not always an easy.
The heart of man plans his way,
but The Lord establishes his steps.
Proverbs 16:9
So let me catch you all up as to why my week was tough. When we left Africa in early June, they told us to expect to be back in Africa 4-8 weeks later. Well last week was week 8 of being at home and for some reason I just thought for sure we would travel and get to travel with my other two friends who had clearance to travel. But God had other plans. For weeks I had pleaded and petitioned with God that since we had waited so long in this whole process that maybe he could let us have a short wait between court and Embassy. I know that was a big request but I had faith that God could make that happen. I even packed Isaiah's bag, cleaned my house and barely bought any groceries hoping we would leave. However we did not travel and when "my plans" didn't work out, I will admit I was sad and disappointed in myself allowing myself to act like that. My heart just longs to be with my sweet boy and its really challenging to function normally when half your heart is overseas in a little crib! So thank you all so much for giving this momma grace!!
Last week we had not heard anything from the Ethiopia government for three weeks after being submitted. Since everyone else (that's on the waiting list at the same time) was receiving finder interviews or clearance for travel, our agency encouraged us to write the Embassy in Ethiopia requiring about our case. So last Wednesday, Jared and I sent a polite email to them and immediately heard back from the the very next morning. We have been waiting for an clearance email and were very sad with the email we received. They had attempted to contact the police officer who found Isaiah and had the wrong number and after weeks they were just now trying to inquire about getting this mans new contact information. So by Friday, our agency found this mans new phone number and gave it to the Embassy. We have been praying hard for that phone interview to happen quickly so we can travel to get our son!!!!
Recently in my quiet time, I finished reading through Proverbs and decided to just flip the page and read out of Ecclesiastes every day. On Friday I started out in Ecc 3:1 and just camped out there.
I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.
Psalm 119:11
Later that morning I got in the car to run errands, popped in the 2nd part of a Beth Moore devotional cd that Jared had recently given me. The very first devotional came on and Beth immediately starts talking about waiting!! Here are a few quotes from her that just really spoke to my heart and really drove home the point God was trying to teach me Friday!!
"The world is teaching us not to wait. If we don't wait on The Lord, we won't fulfill our God given destiny. We will never see the greatest fulfillment of our greatest purpose if we can not wait. If Jesus had taken the throne when offered by Satan in Mat 4:8-1o In the wilderness and not gone to the cross, we would be lost! We need to practice the very discipline of Ecclesiastes 3:1 which says For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven." -Beth Moore
Needless to say, I was thankful for this message and all the great reminders that we will be united with Isaiah in Gods perfect timing. Since Friday, Ecc 3:1 has been on my radar and I have seen it as someones Fb status as well as in an email someone sent me! Writing this a few days later, I still have that peace and trust that its just not time. Until the right time, we continue to wait patiently and worship our King for all the great things he has done for us!!
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